Have I accepted the full measure of my disease?

When answering "Have I accepted the full measure of my disease?" on the 11th of July, 2013 I had stated that I had not fully grasped nor accepted the full extent of the disease of my addiction! Which the reason for not having complete acceptance on the 11/07/2013 was due to the fact I hadn't yet established what "issues" had created/surrounded my path of destruction that had slowly pushed me to personally gain/form such a horrid habit(s); Dependence on/of Methamphetamine! At that particular time/moment I had thought & began to believe that I wasn't supposed to completely comprehend the full measure just yet as I had other unknown things yet to come before which needed acceptance meaning once understanding & accepting whatever that might be I'll then be able to accept the full measure of the disease I personally suffer from.

 

 

Yet answering; "Have I accepted the full measure of my disease?" today (4th September, 2013) I can honestly say I completely recognize & comprehend the fact that I currently have & always will suffer from the disease of addiction which means I will never be "safe" to use Methamphetamines again! Yet honestly, it wasn't until my last relapse which had made me gain the realization of the reality of addiction & everything learnt during residing within a rehabilitation facility for 7 weeks. With comprehending & accepting the full extent/measure of my disease I have had to also accept the fact I may relapse within the journey ahead yet also informing myself that it's okay, Just keeping coming back because, it works, if you work it!